Dying

Thankfully, this week is coming to a close. This is by far the worst week I have ever had in the recent months, considering what has happened. My car is definitely on the verge of death. It shakes and rumbles, it chugs and lags, and it overheats like none other. My body has yet to adapt to my new sleeping schedule and I find myself rushed on a number of days. Wednesday I didn't make it to class because I had overslept and today I was in a hurry and forgot my notebook for Philosophy, which for the most part, relies on note taking. I have the majority of the weekend off and I get paid at midnight, it won't be much, but I can at least by a few tapes and cds that I have been yearning for. Qualia's show is on Saturday and I am looking forward to that, for some odd reason.

Music

Further information/stories regarding music will be placed on my other blog, Dissonant Adagio (just add the blogspot.com to get there). Seeing that my life is absolutely boring and linear, expect more updates on that.

PISSED!

I bought Watchmen and built up a significant amount of anticipation to watch in a number of times tonight, but there is one defect in the dvd that doesn't allow me to continue watching the movie past half way. It's between 2, or possibly, 3 scenes and it causes the dvd to stop in general. I tried it on my DVD player and on my computer and I was still unable to finish the movie. So sad. . .

Free

Now that I am free, here is a

" Even better way to spend money" list
- Put more money into the car
- Purchase a Guitar and a decent amp
- Get the Music that I was unable to get because of the relationship

"Better way to spend money" list
- Save up for future trips
- Comics
- Expand the drum set (Manny's drum set)

Entourage

Rather than do anything productive or talk to my lady, I sat at home, had some pasta, and watched Entourage all night, finishing the 5th season. And I must say, this is the best yet, although the ending has been done before the episodes possessed many more laughs. If any of you have not seen this show, it's a must, thankfully, it did not get dragged down when all the writer's went on strike. It's 3 o'clock and I am not sure if I should go to sleep or stay up. Time will tell.

Onto other news, I am changing my internet provider by next week to Time Warner Cable, thus more blogs will be written and possibly another one created solely focusing on music much similar to bestialbeats. No jokes, no stories, music only. If any of you are interested, you know who you are, then let me know.

I completely forgot about this song, popped up in Entourage
Couldn't post the original video unfortunately

Hope

Over the years, I haven't put one penny into my parent's savings fund they had created for me. And now that I need a car, the thought once again passed my mind as well as the 1K+ that I have left in it. It may not be much but it sure does toss the idea of starting the saving from scratch.

I became impatient and couldn't wait another day for my Revenge cd to come in so I decided to download it. And I must say, it is somewhat less chaotic, still messy and unorganized, after listening to it a numerous amount of times, I have to say, the structure is a big one. The drum patterns on there newest album is much more "militaristic", the guitars are actually heard, faintly, but still heard, vocals, still the same, and the whole structure of the song is spread throughout. Nothing really skillful, but aggressive, interesting, war-like it is indeed.

I couldn't find the remix of this song that I LOVED so this has to do. . .

Durian

Who knew that Durian can induce vomiting? I have always loved the flavor of durian in every form whether it'd be solid or blended, it's great. The scent doesn't bother me too much but it seems to bother some people enough to run to the bathroom and vomit.

Punisher

Today, being the impatient fuck that I am, I told my dad about the possible solution and he decided to take out the thermostat and replace the tube which connects the radiator to the thermostat. As of today's drive around the area, the car becomes significantly cooler with the companionship of a faster speed. Tomorrow, I will be going up to Baldwin Park, hopefully what was experienced today happens tomorrow and the drive up and down, and up and down, becomes worry free.

Rather than purchasing Noctifer albums like I said I was, I made a trip to Second Spin. I purchased Keep of Kalessin's Kolossus and Anthrax' Among the Living. Keep of Kalessin's style of "black metal", I am not a big fan of. I am really trying to get into it, but I have never been a big fan of Melodic Death. The intricate guitar riffs that serve as the conduit for pop, upbeat atmospheres don't please me. Neither do the slight rasp with an increased volume of melodic talking. Whoever claimed this album to be Black Metal, I think you best get your ears checked, the elements of Black Metal that do appear are short lived or they are layered with neck jerking.

While everyone is watching Terminator: Salvation, I was watching Punisher: War Zone, for the second time today. This movie may in fact be my favorite Marvel movie. It contains the cheesyness that comic book movies should have a drop of, a perfect amount of exaggerated gore, and the realism that I enjoy, one of the reasons why I enjoyed Iron Man far more significantly then any other super hero movie. One thing that I wasn't too fond of was the shitty score, godamn, put some good music, not Nu-Metal and perhaps, they should coach the people with accents a bit more, Mexican guy was horrible. I wish this movie was a bit more hyped, at least, hyped enough for me to be aware of, but that actually is pretty difficult. Anyways, I hope there is a second one, I plan on watching that in theatres. I bought the original Punisher: War Zone and I am considering going back and purchasing the 2 disc Special Edition, hell, I am even going to start collecting his series on paperback.

this should be part of the soundtrack

WAR!!!

As of late I have been getting back into War Metal so I guess I will have to go buy some more War Metal since I don't have enough to accommodate my cravings. Prior to this resurrection, I liked War Metal but over time I found it childish. The solos were all over the place, blast beats, inconsistent, and the riffs were just power chords shifting all over the place. The music is what is known as noise. Despite all of that, there were a few aspects of the genre that kept me interested, the vocals often times had catchy lyrics in which you can chant to and the music overall is just so chaotic it's fun. This is in your face music with absolutely no restraints! It makes me regret not taking advantage of going crazy when I saw them.

BLOOD OF MY BLOOD!!!!

I just bought this album haha

by the way, I heard some of the new Amesoeurs' album, that's a must!

On a different topic, everybody who says "Fuck My Life" go fuck yourself. It's an annoying fad that's going around for no apparent reason. I can take a joke, but it's become used excessively for every misfortune that has happened, from something as small as dropping a phone to something as stupid as getting drunk. Honestly, when it's time to actually use that phrase, you would be thinking of other things rather than something as meaningless as that.

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Cast to the flames...

Today marks the first day in 3 years approximately, that I am no longer wearing braces. It's a relief having them off, but my teeth look massive and due to the glue corrosion has occurred in one of my front teeth, so that must be taken care of as soon as possible.

On a lighter note, I have received my tax return check and I had no second guesses on what I should purchase with the majority of the check. I bought 2 cds, which I hope will arrive to this house, since eGay, being slow in certain changes may have not updated my address when I had done so. In addition to those cds, I had purchased the Advent Parallax vinyl that Averse Sefira has released, that will be nailed to the walls as soon as it has been received, need I say more of how much an impact this band has dealt? As soon as I had cashed in my check I made my way to Games Workshop in short time due to the adrenaline that was running through my body and I had purchased the paint necessary to raise the army.

Now, money must be put aside, which isn't much due to gas, food, and other things that had to be extinguished. Thankfully, my paycheck will come in this weekend, and at least half of it will be spent this weekend as well. One thing that made me quite furious was the fact that Last.Fm had deleted my plays for some reason I have yet to figure out. So as of now I am back down to a small amount, oh well. I've also noticed one thing, my writing has become horrible, I should begin reading again. . .

Fucking NSBM, so hard to get my hands on, most of these songs aren't even released in numbers high enough to be distributed to a neighboring country it seems.

Dry

It's interesting . . . I feel that my mind has not been stimulated enough. I remember when I had the intention of creating this blog the topics of what I was to talk about were set in stone. Now that I have practically expelled all that has been on my mind for quite some time, I find this to be quite dull. I have yet to receive another challenge from a Christian, I have yet to pick up a book that has kept me interested, and I have yet to come across music that makes itself completely noticeable by creating something even more morbid that what has already been made. Now that I have had something to serve as a catharsis it's put me on a parallax in which it feels quite odd feeling less ideological and critical. So be it. . .

Here's is some more Industrial andProgressive (if you'd consider it that, one of the few) . . .






Goddamn, when I get paid and receive my tax return, I am heading over to Amoeba and reinstating eBay.

Finally

On behalf of lag and laziness of my providers, and a tad bit of laziness on my part, I have finally received internet. So my updates will be done in due time when I have time to update a few cds that I had purchased in the past month. Unfortunately, there may be another delay before I can utilize internet to the fullest of it's capabilities.

Internet...

Has not been obtained at my house due to the simple laziness of the phone company. They told me that a repairman would make his arrival to bring my phone lines back to health and give purpose to my computer but he failed to show up.

So here I am at Golden West College and utilizing what internet I can possibly have. Since I am on a time crunch I will give a quick overview of what has occurred in my life in the past month.

- Hours have been cut drastically leaving me unable to purchase and have my Warhammer army grow and what has been really devastating is the fact that I can't purchase any more cds until the economy gets better, quite depressing.

- On top of that, Valentine's Day being one of the many money making holidays, has managed to serve it's purpose of burning a whole through my wallet, in terms of gas, dinner, and so on.

-I have never been happier in my life, I wake up with a smile, I go to sleep with one. I guess this is the result of having affection being laid upon you and being distributed to one person.

I think that's it, the estimated time for internet being at my house once again is said to be Monday, but I am not crossing my fingers. You have no idea how punishing it is to have a computer in my room yet no internet, the purpose of the computer is obsolete. I have so much to do but nothing to execute those updates/ideas/etc. with. I'll elaborate on these once service has been given to me.

Hiatus

I will be dismantling my computer tomorrow because I will be moving so I will not able to be online much. I saw the inside of the house for the first time, and I can actually say I am satisfied with it, one drawback though, is the neighborhood. It seems fairly dangerous, so I think it is time to arm myself accordingly, just in case if anything were to happen.

On another note, I have never been happier, some of you probably know the reason, but others you will just have to wait. I read a fortune cookie and it said, "Happiness will be right around the corner..." Hopefully, it remains that way and what I expect this happiness to be lasts awhile.

Farewell for quite some time.

Really?

I was looking through Ill-Minded's page thanks to Myspace's new annoying feature and found this comment:

ayo waszqood mah niqkahh qudd lukz on dha request hit up dha pikz..hit me up on aim or whatever you have lmaoo ahahaha...s4s w4w &+ pc4pc jusz lemme knu n show proof iqhtz & i qotchu show ya paqe sum love iqht pce

If you are trying to be cool, you made the wrong move. If he was able to come up with this comment in seconds then I must say, you definitely won the award for being the "M05t Stup!d3st K1D 0F D4 Ye4 2oo9". Even that took me awhile to craft.

Anyways, support Ill-Minded Streetwear

You will probably never see me where these shirts no matter what, but I will do what I can for something as harmless and bonafide as Ill-minded.

A translation done by Bj:

Excuse me, but how are you my fellow African Americans. Good luck on the request and will you take a look at my pictures. Please message me on AIM or whatever accommodates you. *Laughs* I will support you and share friends if you do the same for me. Just inform me with some proof, alright, and I will send your profile my regards. Peace


BRILLIANT!

This is what happens when you get your hours cut. You find simple stupidity to be the great remedy to all your money caused stress. Fucking Economy, Obama, you better do something, I am deprived of art!

Departure

I will be moving within the next 2 weeks, if all goes correctly, smoothly, and what not, next weekend. If possible for those that read these posts that are in the area (friends haha), would you be able to help? There will be lots to move so it will take one whole day. If you are unable to make it, spread the word, if you are, I am appreciative and will buy snacks, monsters, and whatever else to fuel our bodies, so please text/myspace/call, aim is futile.

Thank you.

Solstice

Shadows of the Moon (The Winter Solstice)

Grinding my heels and my mind (from having shitty shoes and running all over the store and having the Vegas trip being in peril) has resulted in the complete overlooking of the first day of the Winter Solstice (it was yesterday), for those that don't know what it is, it is nothing great to those that have no interest in origins of religions, and it can also be referred to the first day of Winter. Anyways, work has been very hectic, I don't understand how the economy can be in such danger when I am very certain that the store has been making far more money that it has the last year. Thankfully, Xmas brings in the best of good looking people but also the nastiest and most vile. This job is not too bad. The amount of work I have to put in is well worth the eye candy.

Why couldn't I be taller and older?

Wallpaper

As a get well gift for my mother, she just underwent surgery, for what is unknown to me, anyways, my sister decided to begin the deconstruction of my bathroom wall. Previously, it had wallpaper, and the wall paper began to become infested by mold and other organisms so we are deciding to taking it down and painting it, the color has yet been decided. Susie and Marvin began the destruction of the wall and I am continuing their works today by myself, and let me tell you, it's no easy job. I am no wall maker, but I think the mold just got the paper stuck in the areas I was assigned, thus making it much harder. Anyways, I am taking my break and I decided to smoke a swisher I have had for awhile and came to the conclusion, I prefer cigarettes over cigars, or maybe the swisher was quite old, Sufa's going away. And now, my break will probably just consist of blasting some fucking DSBM haha. Lifelover is first on the list.

Anyways, I am looking forward to seeing everyone the few that matter, this weekend. I may be a bit late to the Thanksgiving festivities since my mom will be coming that night, but I assure you, I will be there. Once that is done, another break will be under my wing.

Literature

My lack of reading has definitely been a problem. I can feel my vocabulary wither to what it once was, I have begun finding more grammatical errors in my writings, and my sentence structures are becoming horribly built. On top of that, it seems like I have no new valid words to be used against
"Those that are hated". If anybody has a paypal account, please let me know, I have plenty of books that I am in dire need of. Don't worry I'll give you the money to purchase them for me.

Process

There are so many things that I wish to say, but I am unable to say it, it is not a writer's block it is more of something that I prefer figuring out thoroughly before having it be said when the thought itself is incomplete.

On a much lighter note, some pervert came in with a signed picture of some Playboy model and he wanted me to find a frame for it. I should have told him white so people would be unsure whether that is cum or not. It was pretty evident that he was a nerd that sat on his computer everyday exploring the various worlds that porn has to offer. I, on the other hand, have given up on porn, I find myself watching it less and less and I find myself feeling filthy after a quick session. It's just one of the many things I am disgusted by.