Helloween

After coming home at 5 A.M. and obtaining minimal sleep, my body still remains charged. Last nights party was alright, the Riverside people already seemed to have a close knit relationship leaving us as the outcasts and me being designated driver didn't quite help. I personally didn't mind DD, for some reason, I haven't had much of an urge to drink, so why not put yourself to use and let others enjoy their fun. Of course, I still had a few drinks. . .

Tonight is the night which I had been waiting for for quite some time. Tenebrous is a band that I had my first encounter with at the Embrace the Hate fest 3 years ago and I have been itching to see them plenty more times. I heard that they were playing in tonight since July and it still surprises me how I could have actually thought of not going, this is definitely my most anticipated show. Tonight, I may make up what drinking I didn't do last night, but then again, I have never been a fan of drinking at shows.

I couldn't find a video of Tenebrous and Kult ov Azazel isn't much of an importance. . .



. . .so does Folk make me gay? haha

Drugs. . .

are hard to come by. My connect is lagging, I was suppose to have picked up my shrooms last night but that seems to have been pushed back to tomorrow. Despite his statements, I am still questioning his confirmations, although he is the middle man, random dates should not be stated. As of now, the deal will continue next week. Not only that, but it also seems that Cocaine can only be sold in 8 balls, which is far too much. I only desire a minimal amount for experimentation not a full on addiction.

Anyways, I have successfully cut back on cigarettes. As of now, I smoke 1-2 a day, but if the occasion is right, I'll slide in a few more. I don't really have any intention of quitting wholly, but cutting back should be considered due to the fact that I find myself out of breath after a short jog and random times my chest won't feel so good for a second or two. Health factors don't bother me so much, they were used as a stress reliever during my infant stages, but as of now, it's become a habit. Impotent yet satisfactory.

Contrary to popular belief, Drugs are NOT bad. The only reason they are perceived as being a magnet for the stupid is simply because of the abusers. When controlled, Drugs become the outlook of life. Drugs give you an alternate view on the world. It's alters the norms that we go through everyday and gives the user (not the abuser) a different perspective. When in a rut, why turn to a psychologist? The majority of them go through the motions in order to get their paycheck, nobody knows how you truly are but yourself, Drugs allow the carnal to transcend the spiritual. Of course, there are drugs that you should stay away from such as shooting up Heroine, Ecstasy (both being very addictive), and Weed (a drug for bums, slows down the body, slows down life) but everything else should be taken in moderate amounts. Know your limits, resist peer pressure, put control on top of dependency. I am not responsible for your failures of control and responsibility.

LifelOver

PS: The Smarter people are more susceptible to drugs. Don't think I am smart, I am throwing this out in general.

Hallucinogens

The only band that comes to my mind that has become a significant part of me is Averse Sefira, but I think there will be one more added to that stable, Velvet Cacoon. Despite the many controversies that have erupted from various interviews, assumptions, etc etc. I have grown to love this band. Consistently being studied and listened to, the images that they convey have actually been conveyed. Austere creates music powerful enough to move me to sentiment, Averse Sefira conveys ideology through the very music itself among vocals, Hypothermia exudes emotion incomparable, and now Velvet Cacoon has managed to create the Water.

Velvet Cacoon's music is odd at first, the music has a great sense of ambiance. Distortion is used heavily, keyboards break through the distortion, and the vocals are haunting. Through these sounds, the waves subside and erupt, the waves crash among rocks and retreat back slowly, while the vocals remain distant as if under the sea. It's been said that Velvet Cacoon's music is best under the supervision of DMT, DXM, or any other hallucinogen. Although I have not experienced those, through my dreams, my sleeps are perfect, I feel different.

In the near future, I plan on purchasing shrooms (I have found a connect, price seems reasonable, currently making sure everything is correct), biking towards the beach, and taking in these, all while listening to Velvet Cacoon. Alternatives are being constructed as well, if any would like to take part in these events, more info would be brought to you. Of course, depending on the person changes will be made to the occasion.

Creepy

After many delays, Steven and I finally watched Paranormal Activity, others did too, but we were the ones being whipped around. Anyways, I loved the movie. It takes the path of "realism", my knowledge of such events can only go as far as what I have read, thus the quotations. Rather than cover it with effects and cheesiness, the movie attacks the mind. Accompanied with perfect timings between each sound to the lack of in depth photography with all significant events occurring around Witching Hour , it creates an eerie feeling. As for the props used, I can say that the crew did a great job in doing research, keeping everything legit. I have little complaints for the film, definitely something different, realistic, original, and balanced.

In the middle of the night, I woke up with this and my sister standing in front of my bed. Shortly after, I changed to West Indian Girl and fell back to sleep.

Winds

I am not sure if I am the only one that notices this, which I probably am just because I tend to be fascinated with subject matter revolving around the psych, certain weather conditions contain certain emotions that accompany them. I did a small bit of research and it does explain plenty of it.

Winds possess odd qualities aside from keeping us cool or keeping our lips chapped, whether it being accompanied with depression, anxiety, stress, or a number of other negative emotions. Depending on your geographic location you can receive one of the aforementioned emotions or all of them in addition to the ones that I had not listed. Seeing as how I live in Southern California, I will focus in this region.

Southern California during late Summer and Fall season, we are greeted with Santa Ana Winds. Santa Ana winds are hot and dry, resembling desert wind. During these times the winds are able to put a person under a number of fatigued situations, migraines, insomnia, dizziness, apathy, depression, muscle weakness, nausea, the list goes on. Interestingly, in certain countries a person can avoid being thrown into jail simply for the season. Depending on location, during these times suicide, alcoholism, and depression jump up significantly due to the winds, lack of sunshine, and climate changes.

I can personally say, I have found the reason for my down feelings during these times. My past days have consisted nothing but droning around, sitting in front of my computer doing nothing, not even typing maniac is visited often. Sometimes I wish I didn't listen to such down music and had more upbeat music in my collection. Shoegaze, DSBM, Post-Rock, those don't help one bit.

Myatt's

Myatt's The Happy Ones was my second play that I have ever attended and to be honest, it wasn't so great. A vessel of a predictable and over used and abused storyline, it aims to simply teach a number of life lessons, don't take anything for granted and forgive. The humor was evident but it wasn't anything to really keep me laughing minutes after the actual scene. Emotion was expressed with a number of swear words, creating a realistic approach but it still didn't sell. Riddled with a number of setting changes and a predictable storyline, this wasn't to great. Putting it Together seems to be the better of my two plays by a long shot.

I love Lifelover



The irony is something that nobody understands for some reason. . .